Oh my very first blog, and can i say i'm not to sure how i feel about it...
I have been an avid kandee johnson blog follower for a while, and i think that is what made me want to start blogging.
I live in a small town that everyone knows every one's business.... I think I'm at the point where i just need to be able to say what i have to say and put it out there somewhere for maybe someone to read and be done with it.
The last month has been incredibly difficult with family, life, work, school, bring a mom on top of it all.
I am a mom of the most wonderful son anyone could ask for. My precious little monkey just turned four, and it seems just like yesterday that i saw him for the first time. Being a mom is not easy, and no one tells you that or they do and you just don't believe them. (like right now i have a sick little boy a sick momma and just spilled my Pepsi all over the chair myself and a little on the laptop) oh joy! My monkey is the best thing that ever happened to me i don't even know what my life would be like without him, in saying all that i love my life as a mom but it is not easy by any means.(until i talk to my sons father i will keep his name out of here and just call him my monkey:))
I am a student for not very long, but i had a great opportunity arise that i just felt i couldn't turn down. I was given some good information that i could get my school paid for and it was a fast track class that would have me done and into the medical field by Feb. who would turn that down?? i jumped at it head first. I had to give two days a week away to take this course and that was a big decision for me because i don't make a whole lot of money and i don't have a full time job. this job has always been my dream and what better time than now to make the move, I'm 23 with a high school education and felt my clock ticking to get my butt moving ha ha.....
I am also a fiance to an amazing man who loves my to pieces. He is the best thing that has every happened to my self and my monkey. We met long before we ever got together and he always asked if he could have my number.... at first i was new to this town and didn't know what to do. i saw him from time to time here and there and kinda thought he was a bit of a creeper.... anyhow it was his winter break and he came in everyday to eat, he always made a sweet comment or just simply asked how i was doing. believe it or not it just being asked how YOUR doing meant a whole lot to me , probably more than he knew. i finally gave him my number and thought what the heck ill give him a try. we started seeing each other and texting and one thing led to another and now we are engaged to be married next year!
I do have a job as a waitress at a small middle of no where bar. I'm also their cook, and when i am needed i do a little bar tending. lets just say i could do just about anything in that place and know what I'm doing.... i love my job i get to be around lots of people and get to hear all the good juicy town gossip about who is doing who or, who is getting a divorce and who's crops are doing great and who's a failing who has no money and who's loaded etc etc etc!!! it is a good place to be because everyone loves everyone and would do just about anything for ya.
So now to the good stuff! ha ha
I wanted to start this blog because i have a lot of things going on and don't have much time to really sit and talk about them because I'm always on the move.
In the last week and a half my dear grandmother died, which was so very hard for me because i am so far away from my true home where i was born and raised. this is the second grandmother that i have lost since i have been here and let me tell you how incredibly far away from home it really makes you.
I really struggled with that this last week, not being able to be there for my mom, dad, brother and sister who were all very upset about her passing. i felt like i was on a totally different planet than they were. All my family was really trying to make it as easy as possible for me to not be so sad about not being there, giving their kind words on my Facebook and via text. they are a great family and no one could ask for a better family than the one i have.
Work has been a totally different story and I'm so sick of working (i know who isn't?) and not every seeing my fiance, when i do its a quick kiss and off to class or work and when i get home its a quick kiss and a shower and to bed so i can get up and do the next day all over again.... Needless to say the last week and a half has been rough for all of us in this house.
On a happier note we just bought the tickets to go home an visit at the end of the month, and I'm sure i will blog all about that. It is 1:28 pm and i have gotten nothing done today but i did put in a load of laundry, so i guess i did something today!!!
The rest of my day will problaly go like this:
Get off the computer after posting this blog,
Switch the laundry,
Make my monkey eat something,
Figure out what the fiance is going to eat,
Try to do maybe a hour of homework,
Go to a employee meeting,
Come home and finish my homework, if i can even bear to read with my stuffy head....
Spend some time with the fiance,
Try to get rid the this horrible cold that has it's grips on the me and the little one..
And last but not least go to BED!!!!
I hope everyone is having a great day filled with sunshine and fall colors!
lots of tissues and cold medicine,
Brittni
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